我是牛
不甘心… 人人不開心,尤其這新婚失去我身份.不甘心…明明不開心, 就是不甘心… 不過我肯等...等一生都等.
不能回頭... 多年前早明,言不能回頭...可幸在是我這一頭蠻牛, 幾年來無法侍候才和我分手. 成婚之前一刻才趕到,難得你來通報才知道, 往日共你追憶永遠是好,怎能預計似這般難共你同偕共老? 你話只需肯做,差一剎與我拾回舊好…
不甘心, 尤其這新婚 就像玩犧牲,想過搶新娘..我差點講真......
不甘心,人人不開心,尤其這新婚失去我身份.不甘心,明明不開心, 就是不甘心.. 不過我肯等... 等一生都等.
歷史一刻早已將舊伴侶轉送別人, 我說別傷心,仍能恰當大方去做人.約定日後你若和他雙婚 拿來用你尚有餘的惻隱憐憫我此生的不幸,不緊要 約到明年來生.
這都好,自小想拿到的全得到,如今我求不到才知道…我命運裡雖則當你是寶,天涯上有更多的好. 情人仍然未抱要這麼的慘酷..她不要我再拾回舊好
一頭蠻牛..闖情場竟成為一頭蠻牛..慘淡在是我知不能回頭,欺騙我難約定未來回頭
我是牛...
Quiver
I got up… I can’t sleep…I felt like I just stepped out of a tornado! And I wonder if writing this can make me feel the least bit better, but I feel the need to channel all these uneasiness to …somewhere….. anywhere..
I used to have something precious. Something so precious, its almost unmeasurable. Something warm, comfy & cozy, like sunshine seeping into your bones. Something so fitting that you thought nothing similar has ever came like thisclose. You thought you know it like the back of your hand but yet it never fails to intrigue & amaze you. Something sweet & fun & filled to the brim with laughter. Something that actually fits with that securing "click" sound! Something that got me through the most difficult time of my life. its simply beyond words. I can’t describe it!
But now I’ve lost it. I had to forgo it, cut it, & forget all about it. All due to just ONE stoopid and complicated reason (which is quite enough thank you!). Others seem to think its a necessary evil to go cold turkey & cut all ties, but some times i wonder if its really really worth it… For the first time in this interim period, I cried in my dreams and i wonder if all the effort I’ve put in for resistance has evaporated with the tears. Some say when one door closes, another opens. But I find myself at the same end of a magnet. such a struggle & a misfit.. I’ve never felt so lost, so wrong & so at the extreme end of things//
That friendship & the intangibles that surrounds it, I’ve now lost..
I miss it so so so so much… it hurts.
I’m sorry.
