Dice’s Drivel


Reason to Rage - Nonsense & sensibility
January 21, 2007, 7:20 pm
Filed under: Reasons to Rage

***** All children enter schools as question marks and leave as periods… I leave as an exclaimation, a hex sign, a percentage and some other what-knot symbols all stringed together. *****

Congratulations! We are the victim of the greatest scam in self-denial history! Once over? Twice over? Trice over??

How stoopid can one get!?!

But yet again can stupidity be really measured?!?

It’s absoutely absolute! We must be raging. Mad and maybe even sad. Even now, I know what it feels like to be dead, to have my destiny dealt with, to be creamed, clobbered, iced, liquidated, blended, vaporised and minced. To be kissed off, knocked off, slapped off and KO’ed to kingdom come!

Foolish dreams have drugged us. Reality, gave us the awkening big fatt slap. Question is, are we still asleep? Or do we choose to be?

Have I somehow discovered our own order out of the chaos that I created? Somehow I’ve set fire to our own installation, laid waste to my own performance and sacrificed what may perhaps be the sweetener (my foot), the cherry on top (my ass), the big fatt bonus (ya right), just so I may act, no, make that re-enact the drama for you. Somehow, I feel the need to share. Like how all our educators - the taksmasters, the slave drivers and the whiphands have alwasy enforced - to learn from mistakes! But to put it curtly, its simply to learn from stupidity.

So does this make stupidity superior? If that equation is relative then perhaps I can make even He-Man feel like a wuss…

Someone once said that "to think is the hardest task in the world". Strange as it seems when essentially all humans possess an existential curiosity - a basic need to make sense of ourselves and our world and in this case to make sense of nonsense. To answer questions! We ask questions all the time! From the most mundane and trivial to the most complicated & hypothetical ones( like the one on stupidity, above!).

But why question if all we know is that we do NOT know? If our ONE certainty is ambiguous, if our ONE constant is change, if our ONE agreement is to disagree then how will we rage? How will we learn? How can we be more stupid in order to be smarter?!?

And so the answer to dismiss this persistant nagging voice in our heads is, my dear friend, as obvioius as whats in the next line below…



この世界を憎む
January 17, 2007, 6:20 am
Filed under: Uncategorized

この世界を憎む
この世界が大嫌い。
神様、恋様、愛様、あなたたちはどこへ行ったんの? 皆が見えない、聞こえない、いない。。。
私の心はもう一度死んちゃった。。知ってるの?
貴方について考えたいと想わない!
あなた自身の道歩く、私自分の道歩く、それは良くない?
やっぱり私は特別じゃない
私は一つ大な馬鹿ですね!私に自分はちょっと信じられない。。。でも本気だよ! 私も層思います。。。そんなバカな。。。
もうだめだ!毎日毎日疲れ過ぎました。このままじゃ。。
どうしょう?
いやですね!
どうすればいいの?
もういい!手に負えない!あたし強くなりたい!だって。。。
じゃ。。これ以上話しても無駄だよ。私にするな。もうくたくただ。。
                                     夏美上
                             2007年1月17日 水曜日